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SGA Fic: Faded - tranquility... best achieved in chaos
SGA Fic: Faded
Title: Faded
Rating: PG
Category: John Sheppard/Elizabeth Weir. The Return missing scene.
Spoilers: The Return Part 1
Disclaimer: Owned by others. Pay them.

He arrives at her door in well-worn jeans that hang awkwardly on his hips as though he doesn’t quite remember how to wear them. Mission reports are piled high in the box in his arms, a black marker Kitchen written on one cardboard side.

She rests her forehead against the door, holding her hand flat against the wood as she tries to think of nothing and wonders why.

“Elizabeth,” he says softly with a hint of a smile. “Open the door.”

She does, but she’s a mess two feet behind and two inches below the surface, so she keeps it close, holds it tightly at her side. “John. It’s good to see you.”

He doesn’t say anything, but pushes at the door gently and invites himself past her. She remembers her office suddenly, is caught in a vague memory that smells of the sea and tightens her chest.

“I brought you some paperwork.” He indicates his box, stands awkwardly for a moment before setting it down. “I finally caught up on the reports.”

“Good. That’s good.” She clasps and unclasps her hands, stuck beside the door. She’s never noticed the way the afternoon light shines into her apartment or that she has curtains over her windows. “I hear they’re keeping you busy at the SGC.”

“They haven’t quite figured out what to do with me yet.” He walks to her phone, pushes the button on her voicemail.

You have no new messages.

“I’ve been writing,” she explains although he doesn’t ask. “My memoirs. I always meant to write it all down.”

He sits on the arm of her couch, pulls his cell phone from his pocket to dial a number. “I have model planes.”

When she looks at him blankly, he uses a hand to mime a plane flying through the air.

“Oh,” she says.

Her phone rings. He looks at her expectantly and she blushes.

“Elizabeth, it’s John.” He speaks into his phone but watches her, his voice echoing softly from her answering machine. “So listen, I think there might be a problem with your phone.”

She tucks her hair behind her ear with a smile.

“Now I’m not an expert, but I’m sure Rodney can figure out something-”

“Okay, point made.”

He ignores her. “I know all this Earth technology can be overwhelming-”

She steps to the answering machine, stops the recording. “I think you fixed it.”

“You sure? I could leave another one, double check.”

They share a look as he puts away his phone, but something in it reads of feelings, and she looks away to draw invisible markings on her keypad. She doesn’t know what he expects of her.

“I did mean to call.” She traces a line down the 2 to the 5 to the 8. For a week after they returned, she would find herself trying to tap an earpiece that wasn't there.

His hand comes up, fingers mixing with hers over the phone as he pushes a button.

You have one new message.

She waits, stays where she is although his knee presses lightly against the outside of her thigh and his hand rests warm in hers. His close presence is familiar, and memories of Atlantis make her heart race.

Elizabeth, it’s John.

Another push of a button and his knee shifts forward until she’s standing profile between his legs. The words of a politician are suddenly on her tongue, alliance and demands and my people. It makes her tense with regret, and she turns her head to him.

Message saved.

She never forgets she’s still on Earth.

“No excuses,” he says, gently untangling his hands from hers.

She nods when he stands and moves away, his back to her as he walks the few steps to the door. She isn’t sure if she’s glad.

He pauses before he steps into the hallway, faces her.

“What you’re writing...” He glances over at the open journal on her table. “I’m sure it’ll be great.”

He leaves, and she waits for the faint sound of the ocean that never comes.



21 whispers :: tell me a secret
unwinding From: unwinding Date: October 4th, 2006 07:56 am (UTC) (Link)
oh, that's lovely. so happy to see you writing again. thanks for posting.
bluebanrigh From: bluebanrigh Date: October 4th, 2006 08:22 am (UTC) (Link)
That's just great. :D

Am tickled that he put his reports in a box marked Kitchen and that she kept trying to tap her earpiece a week after she came back.

Love that he left her a message.

tater_mae From: tater_mae Date: October 4th, 2006 08:48 am (UTC) (Link)
my love for you has no words.

except maybe it does.

my love for you is like my love for standoff, but greater! (which is a lot, btw.)

yay for fic!

muldy From: muldy Date: October 4th, 2006 09:44 am (UTC) (Link)
omg I just squeed when I saw you'd written fic :) and it was awesome
mspooh From: mspooh Date: October 4th, 2006 11:14 am (UTC) (Link)
Damn you. That was GORGEOUS and so incredibly THEM. Can I have your babies now?

And while I'm at it, can I borrow your muse? *rubs you for some inspiration*
ceruleantides From: ceruleantides Date: October 4th, 2006 01:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
I had a feeling that you'd have a scene about Elizabeth's apartment.. :)

It's very deep - Love the earpiece bit - and I can't even conjure up words for the message. So very wonderful.
From: nyuszi Date: October 4th, 2006 02:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
this was beautiful beyond words! you need to post fics more often, because they're great!

*deep sigh*
chaostheory125 From: chaostheory125 Date: October 4th, 2006 09:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
(Jenicken, I got your letter *squee* omgthankyousomuch. One for you is on it's way. The End. PS. We need to chat.)
elvinborn From: elvinborn Date: October 5th, 2006 04:09 am (UTC) (Link)
this is a thing of beauty.
I love the feel of it.
I'd point out my favorite bits, but then I'd just have to paste the whole thing here again.
nhawk From: nhawk Date: October 5th, 2006 06:35 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh, this is perfect and, as others have said, beautiful. Thank you. *goes to read again*
sunny_serenity From: sunny_serenity Date: October 5th, 2006 07:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
SHE-TAKI MUSHROOMS!!! That was so incredibly Sparky. 'Incredible' is pretty much all that comes to mind. *adds to the mems*
hopalong_pxp From: hopalong_pxp Date: October 6th, 2006 05:59 am (UTC) (Link)
Awww! Very bittersweet. I loved it!
bluechevron From: bluechevron Date: October 6th, 2006 12:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well, that's very good! I like it!
aoihikari From: aoihikari Date: October 6th, 2006 04:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
i love this! perfectly sparky!!! XD!!! awesomesauce!

ps: stand-off = love. you better be giving me some more of that next time I get my goodies!!! :P

*loves on you tight* XD!!!
haildorothygale From: haildorothygale Date: October 7th, 2006 01:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
Damn, this is really beautiful.

For a week after they returned, she would find herself trying to tap an earpiece that wasn't there.
He leaves, and she waits for the faint sound of the ocean that never comes.

I love these lines because - from a character pov - they are just so layered with meaning. That last line is so loaded with the loss that Elizabeth feels that it made my chest catch.

..Of course I wouldn't have complained if John had hung around to try out Teh Healing Flyboy Sex on her either. ;]

This ep firmly convinced me that Elizabeth has pretty much been ruined for anything but Atlantis. I mean they all kinda had, but at least John and Rodney were still involved in the program in some way - Elizabeth went from Expedition Leader to part time "consultant". Ouch.

Er...have you/are you going to post this on john_elizabeth for the whole class to enjoy?
agentcat47 From: agentcat47 Date: October 9th, 2006 03:39 am (UTC) (Link)
My goodness! Get behind on people's livejournal entries, and you miss new fics. This felt like something I'd write. I've been working on a piece for the first part of The Return, but I just wrote a piece sort of like this (has the same feel) for a different fandom, which is at my journal.

I loved this though. So perfect for a missing scene to be added in somewhere. I just knew when he pushed the button and heard 'no new messages', that he would pick up his own cellphone and leave her a message, and she would be embarassed. I love how she's a mess and he shows up, but once he leaves, there is this lingering presence that is still there and she finds no relief. She still finds no relief of what is missing from her.

Excellent work, and I look forward to your next piece. I've been doing some beta work for someone, and in the email address, their signature in each email is a quote from Joe Flanigan, which says, "When we started shooting, I invited the entire cast over to the house to drink a little Scotch and watch Galaxy Quest. During the movie, Torri looks at me and says, 'I don't know if I should laugh or cry.'" Use that quote wisely.
anr From: anr Date: November 19th, 2006 02:11 am (UTC) (Link)
So, so lovely. A perfect missing scene from the ep.
mirafemina From: mirafemina Date: December 28th, 2006 07:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank the gods that Sky One finally showed The Return P1 so I can read the lovely fics it sparked (pun only slightly intended)!

He sits on the arm of her couch, pulls his cell phone from his pocket to dial a number. “I have model planes.”

When she looks at him blankly, he uses a hand to mime a plane flying through the air.

“Oh,” she says.

Her phone rings. He looks at her expectantly and she blushes.

This would have been adorable to watch. *sigh* As much as I loved the Carson/Elizabeth scene, I wanted sparky more. Thanks for writing.
rocksalted From: rocksalted Date: February 11th, 2007 05:22 am (UTC) (Link)
wow. that was beautifully written... feels like something from the episode. :o)
claw789 From: claw789 Date: May 15th, 2007 12:20 am (UTC) (Link)
Reaching for an earpiece that isn't there conveys homesickness without using the word. Great stuff.
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